Saturday 8.31.13:
The card of the day is the Five of Cups. The hidden energy card is The Moon. The card sits in the position of Nettle = boundaries and caution.
Emotional loss can slip through the cracks.You will tend to look at what is lost rather than what was gained.
It is amazing what can inspire me to write. To simply put words down on paper...er.....I mean screen. Whichever!
As I was hooping for exercise, listening to Sarah Bareilles' new song "Brave", I was struck with great emotion. The need to dance. The desire to love my inner child.
I watched the video and was even more inspired.
Have you seen it?
For all you Tarot Readers. Try to find the cards within the words she has written.
Strength....
Hermit...
The Fool...
I love it!
The energy of the day speaks about the acknowledgment of your ability to be Brave. To dance in an open area and have others watch you.
Who cares?!
As a Mystic, sometimes we have to be brave, and dance when there is no music. You are dancing with no music every time you decide to venture out on your own. To recognize your good.
The Moon card speaks of psychic energy but also the start of evolution. Do you think it took a few seconds for a species to evolve into something grand? Nope.
It can take a life time. Of course I am not going to get into a debate on whether there are some life forms who do evolve in seconds and then die because it may have been a misfit. Not able to survive.
I would rather focus on your ability to change. To evolve. To do something wonderful and create. To leave that which is holding you back and move forward into your light.
Try to hide from it. Try to out think it. To out wit it. You will eventually lose. Happiness is all around. Joy is there. It may be within the two cups that are left behind. It may be within the castle that stands before you. You must not cry for that which is lost.
Even if it means travelling forward with no companion. Sometimes you have to speak what is on your mind. Sometimes you have to take the first step on your own. No hand holding allowed.
It may seem this way.
Source is always holding your hand. You may not notice it. You may feel alone at times. Believe me the journey can put blinders on your eyes. You sometimes only see what is in front of you.
It is time to focus on your goal. The goal of being happy. Happy with your choice. Happy with the state of your existence. Satisfied with the dance you have choreographed.
Blessed Be.
Thursday 8.15.13:
The card of the day is Third Eye Chakra. The hidden energy card is Judgement. The card sits in the position of Nettle = boundaries and caution.
Such a wonderful day.
Sometimes you have to really push forward with who you are and what you believe in. Sometimes you must step off the ledge and jump into opportunity.
There are times when things just do not work out in your favor. Or do they?
Maybe you have not received exactly what you were expecting. Source has other plans. Did you know that if you were to walk around this wonderful world and state "There is always more than enough" when you saw the lack of an item.
No pencils in sight?
There is always more than enough.
No more fries?
There is always more than enough.
Everything happens for a reason. The information is there.
It may not feel right at that very moment but it is perfect. Did you know that?
To allow things to take place. To allow the very moment to unfold.
What surprises you will find.
The energy was about information of good things. A new way of thinking.
I woke up this morning upset. Don't know why, I just did.
I decided to search for information and answers. I received them. I asked and there was the information. Was I upset?
Nope. I new that as long as things were being taken care of then it would all work out in my favor.
The person who helped me was awesome.
I thought to myself "I should have done this a long time ago".
I wanted to blame someone for my lack of self worth.
I really had to let it go.
I needed to take charge of my own self worth.
I needed to set my boundaries. Advise those around me that "I can" and "I will".
Sometimes we have to stick up for our self in a healthy way.
In a loving way.
Blessed Be.
Wednesday 7.17.13:
The card of the day is The Empress. The hidden energy card is The World. The card sits in the position of Nettle = boundaries and caution.
What a fine day.
I am adjusting to the California environment.
As I started to do things around the house and boss my partner around, I found that time was slipping out of my hands, and my entry for the day was put at the end of the list. I am sitting here, in the room that we are staying in, and writing about the energy of the day.
I found a wonderful smokey quartz pendant that I could wear here in California. This is the stone that filters a lot of the energy that is around me, so that I am not always on overload with information. The stone that I had to wear in Texas was known as Brown Tourmaline. It did wonders for me. The energy would be pushed outward and the spirits around were silenced. When I concentrated on what was being said, I could hear the spirits around me, and pick up different images for those that I am reading for.
So much information. I went to the DMV to see if I can get my California drivers license and also a lot of shopping for little things.
Little things that add up in cost when you are on a budget.
I have to remember that there is always more than enough. That there is always a constant. The energy is about understanding the cycles of change. That money is an ever flowing energy that we must learn to let go of.
We must learn to recognize which items are a necessity and which items are not.
I must understand that Source will take care of the things I need and also will supply me with the means to create abundance.
I must not worry. One cycle of abundance will lead into the next. I am not aware of what is happening behind the curtain as the stage is being set. What will take place in Act II of my life? I am sure it is a musical. I am also sure that the stage will be set with gold and glitter. This is how we must see our life. What does your abundance look like? What will the stage look like with your Act II?
Blessed Be.
Tuesday 6.18.13:
The card of the day is the Devil. The hidden energy card is the World. The position that the card sits in is Nettle = boundaries and caution.
This year has really been about the damn Ego and all of it's bullshit. It flings it at us when we have just taken a bath. The Ego throws all of this turmoil our way, to watch us either react or not react. Either way he is getting what he wants. He is getting our attention.
One by one, the stone is hitting us on the face. Small pebbles of reality and illusion. Just smacking us upside the head. We do not let it phase us at first, but eventually it gets to us, and in the end we lash out.
"Stop It!"
There is only so much a person can take on. Why are we required to always stay positive?
There is a difference of being ignorant positive and spiritual positive.
People are always stating, "Well you have to stay positive. Look at the bright side."
No. You look at the bright side! You may like what you do and how your life is going, but I am not going to subject my spirit to confinement. I am not going to be told that you have to do this and that is the final word.
I did not work on my self, grow in so many ways, and be told to return to the person who I was, before.
You stay stagnant! You stay in your life and be happy! I am going to move onto bigger and brighter things. I always come out on top. I can choose to leave or stay. This is my right. Money will come and money will go. Contracts are written and contracts can be broken. We break our very spiritual contract, everyday that we do not live within alignment of our Divine Plan.
Have you ever noticed that people come and go with a job. You look at them rise above the rest and then leave for something wonderful. What if I am just playing a game, because I am scared of the wonderful possibility of success, if I was to venture out on my own. Create my business. Create my life.
Why do I think that my gift is not worth anything. I see it every time I aid someone on their journey. I see the information flow. I see the connection happen.
Maybe I am just complaining. Maybe I should just pick up a few of my clothes and leave. Get in my car and drive home. Drive back to my place of sanctuary. People do it all the time. People try, find out that it was not for them, so they pick up and leave. Leave their space of stagnant water and drive. Drive to a new destination. Some may think that you will always be a nomad, but I have seen many nomads travel the world and settle down in the very spot that they were born to thrive in. At the perfect time. In the their own perfect way. As if all the mistakes and mishaps, formed and molded that very moment of clarity, into shear perfection. Without every fall or clumsy mess, there would not have been the perfect opportunity of light.
Why do we subject our spirit to the torture of being dimmed by others. As if they are holding a candle snuffer and waiting for the perfect opportunity to use it. We see it behind their back and yet we proceed with the journey.
Tricky.
I am only tricking myself. I am only tricking myself, if I choose to stay in one spot, to see what happens, and then be advised to keep trying it. To keep trying what? To keep hitting my head against the wall?
To keep going in circles?
Have you ever heard someone tell you, that when you are lost within the woods, to keep walking?
Keep walking in different directions, so that someone can find you?
I doubt it.
People always advise you to stay in one spot, if you are lost, so that you can be found. Find shelter and seek safety. Hold your spot if nature allows it and have faith that they will find you. Shine your light. I am tired of searching for my perfection. It might have very well been in Ventura. I am always searching and walking, that I allow nothing to truly find me.
This part of my life may have been a safe harbor at one time, but something keeps telling me that it is time. Time again to pick up and leave. There are more important things in this life. More important than being secure financially. It is false. It is a false process. It would suck to always think that you have to make money in order to exist.
I need to come to terms with the fact, that I have been trying to fit my spirit into a job, that is not me. Into a position that is not part of my life, anymore.
I find myself stating "I do not know".
I should be stating "I want to know".
Source give me the answer. Make it known.
What if this whole time, Source has been giving me the answer? To get up and leave. To move. To get what is needed, not wanted and accumulated, and leave.
What if my resistance to all of this is causing me this pain and hurt. This frustration. This state of unhappiness. If you were to ask me what I want to do at this very moment, it would be to get up and walk the F*ck out! Who cares! To pack up my clothes and just walk away. The lease will end. I will find a job. I will work three jobs to pay back the debt that has been created and be new again. Be happy. Be home.
Sometimes the cards speak of more than the surface of things. At this moment I am in struggle with my Ego. With my wall.
It is time to end the year of the Ego with a party. A celebration. To state "Stop it!" and move forward.
Blessed Be.
Monday 5.27.13:
The card of the day is Three of Cups. The hidden energy card is Judgement.
I always put a phrase or word in the title of each entry, to give you a short version of the days energy. It is the key word that must be taken in and understood.
Celebration of what?
Why, today is the celebration of who we are. What we have created. The boundary has been set. The line has been drawn.
If you cross this line, then you shall surely see what happens.
This is not a threat but a warning. Free choice is being given. No one is stating that yo have to cross the line. This is as far as you are able to travel at this very moment in time.
Have you set your boundary?
Remember that, yesterday, I met my partner's parents. He set his boundary. He set his line. He stated that they must accept the person he has become....happy.
They now understand that he is not within the shadows. He is content with his wonderful life. He states to me that he is happy because he has found the love of his life, but I think he is simply content that he has found someone who accepts him with flaws and all.
I set my boundaries a long time ago. The line was drawn in the sand a few years back and now I advise people about it. They can choose to cross it and in turn they find out that I will not budge. This is my mountain of happiness. They can either be part of it or be pushed off the edge. And I have pushed a many people off my edge. They are choosing to fall. They are choosing to cause conflict, rather than enjoy.
I do not intentionally push them off, stating, "You have crossed it, now I must push you off".
It is the movement of energy. If you cause discord, then the energy must be moved along. I will not allow you to cause blockage in my life. I will not allow you stay stagnant. You must move along with me or be forced to move in another direction. Wouldn't life be grand if everything just flowed? Allowed the flow of energy to take place in their life.
Be careful though. Take caution. Understand that everything is not a fight. You must stand up for your right, but learn to process the energy, before moving it along. Learn to let go of that which does not serve you.
Help it to meet the great Divine. Aid it on it's way.
It is time to wake up into a new state of existence. A new thought. A new way of living within the love that you deserve. You do know that you deserve love. That you deserve joy. Sometimes we have to take a step in the opposite direction, in order to process, and move, the energy that is stagnant within our life. Within our Chakras. Along our path of enjoyment.
Blessed Be.
