Thursday 7.11.13:
As I get closer to the trip back home. You may find that my entries will be shorter. They may not contain much, but I would rather write something, then have no entry at all.
I think that writing every day, even if it is in small amounts, puts my spirit at ease.
There are times when my words want to be put down on paper...er....page. This is a page of some sort that will be remember in my book of life.
The card of the day is Truth = Judgement. The hidden energy card is the Devil. The card sits in the position of Water = emotions, initiation, and rejuvenation.
The last items of my life will be shipped back to California. Everything else is being given away to charity or to friends here in Austin.
Source always provides.
This is scary. I am scared. Another move. Another life. A new way of thought and process is recognized. My Ego is screaming at me, "Look! Look! Failure is at your door step! Watch out! There will be danger! You are not Worthy!"
Turn it around. The Ego knows that there is no turning back now. The last few moments of worry are coming to an end. I am moving forward with my life.
I was out with a friend the other day and we were talking about my last job and the way things were played out. I decided to change my thought pattern. Why be upset. Why blame. I actually stated to my friend that I am thankful for the way things worked out. I am happy! I am ready for the great adventure ahead of me. I am returning home.
I sometimes laugh at the detours and road blocks that have come up on my journey. They seem to lead me to the exact thing that is needed. I came to Austin, not for the advancement of my job, but to learn how to heal. To learn a new method of love and protection. I learned Reiki. Source brings me to new places to learn a spiritual truth.
What an adventure. It is time to return to that which I know.
To return to my life in California and aid others on their journey.
To heal those who have lost touch with their own self worth.
That is all a Mystic can do. Have others realize that they are connected to Source. They never really are cut off from the Universal Love. They simply pinch the chord a little when a decision, made out of "lack of", is created.
It is time to wake up and say good bye to your Ego, for a bit, so that you can move forward with your dream. To achieve your goal. It is there. I can see it. Can you?
Blessed Be.
Tuesday 6.18.13:
The card of the day is the Devil. The hidden energy card is the World. The position that the card sits in is Nettle = boundaries and caution.
This year has really been about the damn Ego and all of it's bullshit. It flings it at us when we have just taken a bath. The Ego throws all of this turmoil our way, to watch us either react or not react. Either way he is getting what he wants. He is getting our attention.
One by one, the stone is hitting us on the face. Small pebbles of reality and illusion. Just smacking us upside the head. We do not let it phase us at first, but eventually it gets to us, and in the end we lash out.
"Stop It!"
There is only so much a person can take on. Why are we required to always stay positive?
There is a difference of being ignorant positive and spiritual positive.
People are always stating, "Well you have to stay positive. Look at the bright side."
No. You look at the bright side! You may like what you do and how your life is going, but I am not going to subject my spirit to confinement. I am not going to be told that you have to do this and that is the final word.
I did not work on my self, grow in so many ways, and be told to return to the person who I was, before.
You stay stagnant! You stay in your life and be happy! I am going to move onto bigger and brighter things. I always come out on top. I can choose to leave or stay. This is my right. Money will come and money will go. Contracts are written and contracts can be broken. We break our very spiritual contract, everyday that we do not live within alignment of our Divine Plan.
Have you ever noticed that people come and go with a job. You look at them rise above the rest and then leave for something wonderful. What if I am just playing a game, because I am scared of the wonderful possibility of success, if I was to venture out on my own. Create my business. Create my life.
Why do I think that my gift is not worth anything. I see it every time I aid someone on their journey. I see the information flow. I see the connection happen.
Maybe I am just complaining. Maybe I should just pick up a few of my clothes and leave. Get in my car and drive home. Drive back to my place of sanctuary. People do it all the time. People try, find out that it was not for them, so they pick up and leave. Leave their space of stagnant water and drive. Drive to a new destination. Some may think that you will always be a nomad, but I have seen many nomads travel the world and settle down in the very spot that they were born to thrive in. At the perfect time. In the their own perfect way. As if all the mistakes and mishaps, formed and molded that very moment of clarity, into shear perfection. Without every fall or clumsy mess, there would not have been the perfect opportunity of light.
Why do we subject our spirit to the torture of being dimmed by others. As if they are holding a candle snuffer and waiting for the perfect opportunity to use it. We see it behind their back and yet we proceed with the journey.
Tricky.
I am only tricking myself. I am only tricking myself, if I choose to stay in one spot, to see what happens, and then be advised to keep trying it. To keep trying what? To keep hitting my head against the wall?
To keep going in circles?
Have you ever heard someone tell you, that when you are lost within the woods, to keep walking?
Keep walking in different directions, so that someone can find you?
I doubt it.
People always advise you to stay in one spot, if you are lost, so that you can be found. Find shelter and seek safety. Hold your spot if nature allows it and have faith that they will find you. Shine your light. I am tired of searching for my perfection. It might have very well been in Ventura. I am always searching and walking, that I allow nothing to truly find me.
This part of my life may have been a safe harbor at one time, but something keeps telling me that it is time. Time again to pick up and leave. There are more important things in this life. More important than being secure financially. It is false. It is a false process. It would suck to always think that you have to make money in order to exist.
I need to come to terms with the fact, that I have been trying to fit my spirit into a job, that is not me. Into a position that is not part of my life, anymore.
I find myself stating "I do not know".
I should be stating "I want to know".
Source give me the answer. Make it known.
What if this whole time, Source has been giving me the answer? To get up and leave. To move. To get what is needed, not wanted and accumulated, and leave.
What if my resistance to all of this is causing me this pain and hurt. This frustration. This state of unhappiness. If you were to ask me what I want to do at this very moment, it would be to get up and walk the F*ck out! Who cares! To pack up my clothes and just walk away. The lease will end. I will find a job. I will work three jobs to pay back the debt that has been created and be new again. Be happy. Be home.
Sometimes the cards speak of more than the surface of things. At this moment I am in struggle with my Ego. With my wall.
It is time to end the year of the Ego with a party. A celebration. To state "Stop it!" and move forward.
Blessed Be.
Thursday 6.6.13:
When I usually write my entries, there are moments where I feel like I am writing each and every paper that goes into a fortune cookie. A little piece of hope given to each person after their experience with the meal that was prepared for them. Spiritual fruit for the soul.
The Dominant Ego can get in our way. We see this Ego when the illusions of the journey are set before us. The road may be dark, but we soon learn, that the light is not to shine on the outside. The light is to shine within and reflected back on our environment.
The card of the day is Sacrafice = The Hanged Man. The hidden energy card is the Moon.
The card sits in the position of School = Lessons.
What lesson are you learning right now?
The lesson of humility? The lesson of joy?
What part of the movie are you filming at this moment? A flashback? The struggle?
Have you ever noticed that a lot of horror movies have the victim running in the woods? Or they are running through a field. Could this be related to the Moon card? Is the person, the victim is running from, really their Shadow Self?
Having a psychic ability can be a gift or a curse. Their are some light bringers that try to snuff the candle out. Then there are some light bringers who think that they are the best in the world.
There is also the light bringer who knows that they are part of the whole. They can change that which is around them. They travel a road of psychic energy and produce, from the soil, spiritual fruit for others to take in and investigate. To analyze. To apply to their own spirit.
Some will taste the fruit and spit it out with disgust. Others will want more. Some will not even take the time to eat the fruit, for fear can make a person believe that if they do, then they will get sick.
The mind can be a prison cell at times. What we think, can create a box that we must live in. Who wants to live in a box?
Faith is part of love. To love that which hurts us, will change the nature of the energy. To kiss that which is ugly, will eventually make it beautiful.
I could relate this to a crystal. Some people only want the purest crystal. No marks or blemishes. No scratch in sight. They think that if it has no blemish or scratch, then the power will surely be great.
Then there are those who see the true potential of a crystal, blemish and all. They understand that it is just a prop. A prop that will propel them even further than before. The crystal may be scratched, blemished, and half near broken in two, but the crystal worker loves it with no conditions applied. Source has given them this wonderful gift to work with. It may not look like much, but it provides one hell of a punch.
Sometimes we have to accept what is being given. What is blemished on our journey? We have to apply the half used tool with the task at hand. We have to appreciate the hand me down. Our Ego self will state to us "That will not work. Why waste your time? Give up and wait for a better tool."
What if this is all you have to work with. There are people who have made miracles happen with much less. Do not give up. Keep evolving. Keep using your ability to the best of your nature. Keep loving.
Sometimes it only takes one act of love to save the world from certain Death. What if the scales were off balance, and it was your act of kindness, that tipped them back into balance?
Think about it.
Blessed Be.
Monday 6.3.13:
The card of the day is the Eight of Cups. The hidden energy card is the The Devil.
The card sits in the position of High Council = evolution, information, and potential.
Today is the day to look past our Ego. It stands in our way like a gloom shadow, that distorts and manipulates our environment. It speaks only of "can not" rather than "can do".
It twists the perception of our outcome.
Do you know what stops the cycle of non movement?
A song.
A symphony of music that plays to the heartbeat of the Universe. Have you heard it?
Everything from the Earth is part of this Symphony. An instrument that creates a melody, a tune. It breaks through the illusion that there is only destruction and pain.
What is your song?
If life was a musical, what would you be singing about?
Sometimes the light needs to shine within you, in order for it to shine bright on the outside. That is our song. We move to the beat of love. It propels us further and brings our tribe together.
Everything must move to the beat of the Universe. EVERTHING!
Even the meanest person alive must move to the note of love. The thought of existence. The thought of moving forward. They only give in to the negative aspect of nature.
Everything has a counterpart.
Love moves the melody along and we follow with great intent. Hope that we will be part of the second act. Hope that our song of intent is heard by those around.
My song is filled with love for all.
"Let the prayers of others be answered first, for I have more than enough."
Sometimes we search for the answer across the sea. Sometimes we search for the answer across the world. One thing is for sure; we find it within our spirit, hidden in the farthest corner, and we become enlightened. Ignited with passion to create. We move forward with our studies and become whole. Become complete.
The High Council is speaking to us. They are advising us to seek Truth. Seek Love. Seek our own beautiful self.
Everything else will follow. Everything else will fall into place. It always does. Sometimes we must take the long way around, in order to understand that we are strong.
Strong enough to be who we truly are.
Beautiful.
Wonderful.
Healthy.
Perfect.
We should start our journey with that simple statement.
"I am perfect in every way".
This will knock us into place. Within alignment of our Divine Plan. This will allow the energy to flow.
It will allow us to drift and harmonize with the heartbeat of the Universe.
Blessed Be.
Saturday 5.4.13:
I always seem to forget that there are cards on the weekend. I forget because the weekends are meant to be spent with my love. We are in such a rush during the week, that when the weekend arrives, we are ready to get shit taken care of.
Oh the wonderful world of a laundry mat. How it moves in a circular motion...wait a minute! It really does take on the form of the Wheel of Fortune. The washers turn in motion, dryers, and even the people go from one station to the other. The cycle begins and has an end. The wheel turns from one stage to the next. But I digress...
Today will contain a pure message of Love, that will come at an unexpected moment. The thing that should be remembered, is that you must accept it for all it is worth. Even if it may not look like something you want, the real surprise is the lesson that is left afterwards.
Sometimes we forget that Love can enter into our life with great motion. Like a summer day, sitting with your friends, and receiving an unexpected phone call from someone you love. The mood just seems so perfect. The night will surely stay suspended in time. This is our inspiration to dream and take flight. All bets are off. The stress is forgotten.
The hidden energy card is the Devil. The Ego.
Do not let it hold you back from enjoying the great and wonderful time you are having. Think only of the moment.
This entry may be short in length but is a reflection of what has happened. To let you know that Love enters into our life from every corner. It may come as a surprise but will be exactly what is needed. Love is always around you. Do you see it? Do you feel it? Do you notice it?
It is there. Making it self known. Coming at you from a path that you have not noticed. That you have not seen. Be prepared to be surprised. The smallest acts of kindness can change the world. Or so I have been told.
Blessed Be.
Wednesday 4.17.13:
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he Devil card sits in the position of Owl/Mystery/Secrets.
The hidden energy card is the Moon.
A lot of Mystery lies within the day. Enough spaces for my Ego to hide in, to slip by with no warning, and cause the abundance of life to be squashed. The seed will surely not grow.
The Devil is not a bad card. It teaches us to be humble. It teaches me to be cautious of what my inner voice is saying. What intuition is telling me. When a light bringer is faced with decisions, they usually have to meditate on the situation. I always state to those around me, that I have to meditate, before I can give an answer. I must look inside and answer with clarity. Discuss things with my spirit guide. If it takes a month, then you better believe that it will be a defined answer.
The Ego will surely make itself known. Humans must learn to look past the noise that the Ego makes, every so often, and move forward with great Faith. Be Brave. Remember that the energy of the week is about Abundance of things. I know that the Abundance of negative thought can present itself to us in many forms.
So, what is the advice that must be taken in, for the day?
Be Brave! Stick your tongue out at your Ego. Understand that you must see it within your mind, before it can be created. The frame is simply decoration. The picture can go on forever.
Last night I went to a class regarding the Goddess Tara. It was very interesting. The nun talked about how Tara is a bringer of swift help or the heroine. When one asks for help, she is known to bring about wisdom and clarity. She helps a person through ignorance. I had to ask about the word ignorance. What did it mean?
Was it about a person being blind to the Truth. The Nun advised me, that it was about the ignorance of a mistake. A person is constantly making mistakes within their life. The Ego helps us with that action.
It was very interesting to learn about another Goddess or Deity that is related to so many others, such as Mother Mary, Kali, and such.
The Nun advised us to have Faith.
Faith is what tells our Ego to go away. It dispels all doubt within our mind and sets us on a course of greatness.
What course do you wish to follow?
To step out on a new venture. I sometimes struggle with my next step, regarding my spiritual journey, and this is where my Ego steps in. It states to me that I can not surely move forward, for I do not have the credentials to do so. I do not have a set foundation on what is to take place within my life. I am tied to my current job. I can not leave, for you will never make it on your own.
I become stuck in the swamp of self pity. It is time for me to break out. Be Brave. Be strong. I must understand that I am unique in my gift. I can move forward and make profit from my gift. I can use my talent to do something that I love doing. Now it is time to invest in myself. I started to read other blogs and make my presence known. This is what I have to offer to the world. My light. My knowledge. My perception on life's journey.
So, this is my example, on how to tell your Ego to get out of your way. Advise it that you are ready to be the great and wonderful person you were born to be. Tell it that you no longer require it's advice. Do something scary and out of the ordinary, or rather, trust that Source will lead you to the exact situation, that will propel you into inspiration.
Blessed Be.
