The Nature of Today's Energy 6.12.13: Wisdom over Ego

Wednesday 6.12.13:

There are days when I just get so tired of it. Tired of all the small details that take all of my spiritual strength and make me want to blow up into astral dust!

This Mystic is depressed. This Mystic is tired of the juggling act. This Mystic keeps wondering why I am trying to hold onto things, when they are the very item that is keeping me from being happy. Have you ever noticed that when you are single, there is really no one else you have to worry about, but yourself. 

When  you enter into a relationship, you find that your Universe crashes into theirs. Things get jumbled. I find myself in turmoil because I am usually calling the shots. I say when it is time to go. I am in charge of my level of happiness. Well, I am not happy. 

I am having a hard time understanding why I am here. At this very point on my spiritual journey. Why this certain place? Why this certain building? Why this area? Why am I finding so many issues? Why am I having to be positive? 

Sometimes I want to complain. Sometimes I want to just drop the ball and say "Oh well". Everyone else around me seems to be doing it, but that's okay. I have to be compassionate. Well who is being compassionate towards me? 

I miss my support group. I am tired of spinning the wheels on my Bigwheel and finding that I am still at the start of the race. 

I decided to make a change. I decided to make a move. I had to have faith that everything would work out in my favor. So, here I am, shaking  my fist at Source and stating "What the heck are you trying to tell me?"

How can I turn it around?

There. That was my moment of complaining. Where I get to take the damn puzzle, mix it all up, and start all over again. That was my reset button. 

The card of the day is Wisdom or the Hierophant. The hidden energy card is the Devil. The card sits in the position of Kitchen = Creation. 

What wisdom am I trying to create in order to break through my Ego?

What wisdom do I already have that will propel me forward?

Sometimes you have to let go and trust that things will just work out. Not only will they work out but they will work out in your favor. 

When I was learning how to perform a cork screw with my hula hoop, I found that I was trying to grip the hoop as I brought it up above my head. That was a big no-no. You have to let the hoop turn and your hand is just the guide. The guide that lifts the hoop to its destination. If you grip it, then it will surely stop the momentum, and you find yourself getting smacked by the hoop. When will you learn?

I would get so frustrated and would really want to give up. To throw the damn hoop off a high building and watch it explode. 
I did not do that. I picked it back up and noticed when I was gripping. I noticed when I was not gripping. I felt my way into the move. I had to have a lot of confidence. I had to accept the fact that the hoop could hit me. That I will mess up the trick and get smacked. 

After a while I would state "So what!"
I had to keep on trying. Keep on turning. Keep on feeling. 

To feel. 

Sometimes, the Mystic, will place certain covers on the physical senses. Cover our nose, in order to enhance our hearing. Cover our eyes, in order to enhance our sense of smell. Tie our hands together, in order to enhance our sense of energy. Restrain our whole body, so that our spirit will learn to fly. 

Could this be a day of restraint? I think so. I think that our Ego wishes it could restrain every part of our body and make us think that we are not worthy of existing. We are not worthy of good. 

This is my lesson. To press the reset button. To return to that which I was before...of good. Of love. Worthy of greatness. 

Blessed Be. 

The Nature of Today's Energy 5.18.13: Disruption

Saturday 5.18.13:

The card of the day is Disruption = The Tower. The hidden energy card is Judgement. 

The phrase "the calm after the storm" comes to mind when I see these two cards in a reading. There was a storm a brewing yesterday, within my soul. The vessel was about to go into shut down mode, due to too much energy. 

Today is a brand new day. 

There are moments in my life, when a person will approach me and start to talk about how bad the day is. How awful the moment is. Their perception can lead them down a street of negativity. I simply smile and advise them "it will surely work out in your favor". They look at me with silence. No response. 

Do you think they are trying to figure out how to turn that positive statement into a negative one? 

Are they surprised that I did not agree with them?

I have always wondered what goes through the mind of a person who hears a positive statement. Just the other day, I was talking to a co-worker about dieting. Did you know I am a self proclaimed expert on gaining and losing weight? 

She would always state to me about how she ate too much, or gave in to her sweet tooth, and devoured every cookie in the cupboard. My response was always positive. I would advise her that it happens, and that she has to keep on moving. Weight is something that we must first accept. Our own state of existence and the ability to want to change. After many morning talks about the daily eating of yesterday, she one day advised me that I was always so positive about losing weight. She appreciated the fact that someone was advising her that it was okay to fall off the wagon for a moment, and that she was able to return to her healthy way of eating and move forward. 

That made me smile. 

Even though I was feeling blue, that little sentence of appreciation brought joy to my heart. 

The cards speak of peace and change of thought. The awake feeling that we get when everything just makes sense. When the heavens come together in union, to create that perfect moment. This perfect moment. 

When a person first learns to Hoop. You can do it on one side with ease and grace. One way of movement. But a true Dance Hoop person must learn to hoop in the other direction. They call this the second currant. Believe me it is not easy, but when you learn to hoop in both directions, it opens up even more things that you can do. Hoop Dance! I enjoy it. There is also a move you have to do, that is called a Break, and it stops the hoop from moving left, to turn it to the right. I know, it sounds confusing, but bear with me. I swear it will relate to the Tower card. 

When you first start to learn the break, it is not elegant, and it looks like you are making a mistake. With time you learn to make the break (disruption) look elegant with a little sparkle of hands and body motion. The Tower card is about destruction and the trick is to make it look easy, by making it look elegant. 

This method can be related to Pee-Wee Herman's Big Adventure, in the scene where he is riding his bike and hits a curb. He flips over and falls and when he gets back up, there is a group of kids watching him. He looks at them and states, "I meant to do that". This is how we should handle disruption. After it has ended, and people have noticed it, we should look at them and state, "I meant to do that". 

Disruption is simply the absence of Truth. We become confused because we are not recognizing the solution in front of us. 

It is time to wake up. Time to get out of bed and start your day. Time to take your first step into the light. Time to turn towards the Sun, and like the turtle, bask in the sunlight. Raise your face to the sky and soak in the joy of life. 

Blessed Be.