The Nature of Today's Energy: It is time to have a Garage Sale.

Let me try something new. I feel like writing. I do not want to feel like I have to do it everyday. Writing about this wonderful spiritual journey can not have a schedule or time frame. 

I want to talk about the cards that were pulled for today. So much information and also so much change. Do you think there will ever be a day or year where change is not happening? Sometimes I wonder if one day the cards will say "take a day off because nothing is really happening."

I highly doubt that that would ever happen. Without change there would be no growth. I require the small things in life to take place in order for the greater push and shove of energy to take place. 

So here I stand. 
Small and meek. 

I think the great singer Carly Simon can say it better than I can, in her song, "Let the River Run"

"We the Great and Small
    stand on a star
  and blaze a trail of desire
     through the darkening dawn."

This inspired me to write. To write about the challenges every person must face in life. 

The cards speak of this change. It is the Tower that is the hidden energy card. 
Creating. 
Destroying. 
Disruption. 
Destruction.

It has been a while since I have put my thoughts into the ever present internet. 
I am always craving a change. I first started out, on this journey, to find love. To find that perfect person who would be everything I have ever wanted. I knew that I had to work on myself in order to allow that awesome person to enter into my life. 
After much work I found my partner in crime. 

Now I find myself wondering what I will do with my life. 
What I will do with my spiritual gifts. 

Anywho. Let us get back to the cards for today. I have decided to make a career change. Again!? 
Oh Lord! I know. I find myself still searching. I feel that it is not time yet to move out on my own and start my own business. There is much to learn. 
Maybe it starts with writing again. Writing about what I love. Writing about what I know. 

I know this:

The Tower card speaks about the creation of our four walls. I build upward and in turn, with age, everything must fall to the ground. 
I think of a garage sale when I see the Tower card. Actually I think of an Estate Sale. A person is forced to sell off the things that have been accumulated over the years. It is time to give them up. Usually I associate Death with an Estate Sale. As some would say "you can't take it with you". 

Source forces us to pawn, sell, and give away the very things that we hold onto. The very things that hold us back. We are forced to break down, piece by piece, and give it away. Give it to those who require it. 

Destruction is not a bad thing. It is good. One simply receives it with a bad taste in the mouth....I wonder what Crow tastes like?

Good grief. I am all over the place today. I sure hope that you, as the reader, will understand the words that are being stated. 

Your first step may seem scary. It always is. But if you simply take it, then you will find, that you have done something other refuse to do......which is to move. 

The Nature of Today's Energy 7.6.13: Breaking Through the Sludge

Saturday 7.6.13:

The card of the day is Disruption or the Tower. The hidden energy card is the Sun. The card sits in the position of Moonstone = mystery and intuition. 

The safe house that our spirit dwells in can be destroyed at a moments notice. The tree house can be struck with lightening. 

What happens when our life is shaken up? Disrupted with a jolt of lightening. Sometimes everything within our life must be broken down. It must be destroyed. Struck to the ground with a spiritual arrow of Truth. We fall. Our Ego is bruised. 
In the end, we move forward, with the small pieces of love that are left over. The fringed pieces of love and truth that may not look like much but pack a powerful punch. They are the survivors. 
Brush them off. Look at them and examine the true potential hidden within. 

The sun shines once more. The light at the end of the tunnel gets brighter. You can see the end. We all pass through a stage of "breaking through the sludge". 

The slimy film that we produce as we pick up other people's energy and doubt. When we seek advise from those that wish to project their life on us, a small amount of energy is transferred to our spirit, and we cause a build up.
The energy is advising you to break through. The sludge is only two inches thick. It may cover all light around you. It may seem like there is no light, but if you simply put your arm out, you will surely find the other side. Leave it behind. It is time to see the Sun. The clouds need to part. They are only there because you wish them to be present. 

"Oh how gloom and doom things may seem. Oh how awful all of this seems. Oh what will I do now? I can not move forward." 

This form of thought leads us down a new path of destruction. A negative path of "lack of". A negative path of pure chaos where you are only a supporting actor, rather than the star. What happens in Star Trek to the supporting actor who goes with the main crew on their journey to the unknown planet? 
We all know that this person will surely not return. He will be taken and transformed into food or shot with a ray gun. Oh poor soldier #2. 

Let us not be an unknown actor but the main character. Step into the light and be the Golden Child. The prodigal son. Blast through your sludge and shine! Return to the light! 

Your thoughts become the theme music of your show. Can you hear them playing the heroine theme? I can. 
It is time to be known. It is time to exist. Time to be that wonderful and great person that was born to do awesome things! Who cares what the details may be. It is all about the recognition of your intent. The intent to exist.  

Blessed Be. 

The Nature of Today's Energy 6.23.13: Have Compassion Towards the Endless Chatter in Your Head.

Sunday 6.23.13:

Another week has gone by and the energy was about victory. 
What did you win?

I recently put five dollars into a vending-machine, to pay for a $.75 bag of peanuts, and received everything in quarters. I yelled out "I won!"

No one was around to hear me, but just the fact that it felt like a casino slot, made me smile and think about what I really had won. Sometimes the victory of one battle is simply a degree of winning, by evening out. The same amount of deaths on either side and same amount of Van-damage. 

We put so much energy and time into something, that when it produces a "pay out", we think that we are ahead. This is not always the case. 

There are times when you have to come to an agreement in order to move forward with your life, due to the opposing side having the same amount of force and power, causing a stand still. 

An agreement must be made in order to reach your goal. The answer can sometimes be the act of agreeing to disagree, and walking away. 

What are you walking away from? 

How much time and money you have put into the battle? 

I use to think that if I put enough energy and compassion into a relationship, then surely they will see just how spectacular I am, and want to never leave my side. Silly Mystic, unobtainable men are for kids. 

I use to over analyze every move that I made. I use to over think every reaction the other person would give me. 

He did not respond to my text. That means he is getting tired me. That means that he does not want to talk to me. What do I do?

Oh the endless chatter in my mind. I have to calm my crazy ass down and state "All is as it should be". I came to the understanding that I am worthy of great things. If that person is not part of it, then so be it. I had to let go. Have compassion for the pitfalls and booby-traps I was placing on my own path, back tracking to the start, stepping into one, and screaming "How could this happen?"

I want to share a shadow side of me. I use to go after men who were unobtainable because I knew that it would never work out. The Mystic thought he was safe if the end result was pain and heartache. How quickly the men in my life would latch onto my compassion. They understood that I would sacrifice every ounce of light I had within me, to make sure they were okay. 
I was creating my own down fall. 
I came to realize this pattern within my life and had to really let it go. To state "I am worthy of a healthy relationship, with a man who will treat me just as wonderful, as I treat him."

I had to speak of clarity. I knew that I was this spectacular person who had so much to give. That wonderful man had to be a vessel that would be able to transmute the energy, I had to give, and in turn reflect it right back into my heart Chakra. He needed to be my compliment. 

The real key is to stop the endless chatter in your head. Focus. 

Focus on the moment you live within. The flower will grow much faster than the worry weed that you have been watering. Believe me, it is so wonderful to find that wonderful person who thinks the world of you. It is not rare. You have to start with the acceptance of who you really are and loving the very vessel that you sit within. 

Blessed Be. 

The Nature of Today's Energy 6.13.13: Force of Nature

Thursday 6.13.13:

The card of the day is the Ace of Swords. The hidden energy card is the Tower. The card sits in the position of Dolphin = cosmic consciousness, breath, sacred geometry.

The two cards put together in this position, makes me think of a storm, that appears out of nowhere. It destroys all that is within it's path.

It cuts through doors of steel and abolishes that which is not needed. Material things that do not need to be within our environment. Some will be left penny less and others will be no different than when the storm first started.

The storm is swift. It enters into our life for a few seconds and causes everything within out life to be lifted up off the ground, swished around in a circular motion, and hurled back to the ground. It forces us to rebuild.

Rebuild our life from the ground up.

To take that which is left over and start over. The reset button has been pressed. What do I do now? 

I was talking to a friend the other day about how everything was just not working out. I questioned my path. I questioned my very existence within the land of AuZ (Austin). 

One thing kept coming forward as we talked, that I needed to return to that which got me here. The techniques that helped me to advance into my greatness. I was slacking. 

Now I know to be like the Sword and cut through all the crap that is placed before me. I am to be the Force of Nature that picks up that which is not needed and hurls it across the world. Destroy that which is causing pain and leave only what is required. Leave only the good. See only the good. 

Destruction does not have to be bad. It can hurt, but it is always what is needed, in order to advance to the next level. Cosmic consciousness. 

We receive it everyday, when Source downloads our next mission, into our head, and we are set free to accomplish it. 

To be a spy. 

To have power. To have the power of nature at  your expense. What would you do with it? What kind of rage would you cause? What kind of destruction would you create? 

Sometimes we wish to have power. To create that which we want. To control the process. 
You know that the process is the best part. To enjoy what is to take place. To find the good within it. 

The process can never be controlled. You can only have influence on it. You do have control over the final outcome. 
If you create a storm, expect there to be loss. If you create a drought, expect there to be no water. If you create winter, then expect there to be cold. 

Understand that you are in control of your environment. The seasons will change, bringing the harsh cold of winter and the abundance of harvest in summer, but you have to remember how to prepare for what is to come. If you know how to chop wood, then you must prepare your house for the coldest winter. We have all experienced this on our spiritual path. We all go through the seasons of change. 

The real lesson is to move with every swift motion that Source has to offer. To flow with the energy that is being created. I would rather ride the wave of Abundance, then the wave of Self Pity.  That would be the dullest ride of my life. That small wave would sputter out half way and get  me no where. 

Go out and experience the journey. Understand that everything will work out, if you keep positive and re-enforce that positive thought with another positive thought. 

Blessed Be. 

The Nature of Today's Energy 5.18.13: Disruption

Saturday 5.18.13:

The card of the day is Disruption = The Tower. The hidden energy card is Judgement. 

The phrase "the calm after the storm" comes to mind when I see these two cards in a reading. There was a storm a brewing yesterday, within my soul. The vessel was about to go into shut down mode, due to too much energy. 

Today is a brand new day. 

There are moments in my life, when a person will approach me and start to talk about how bad the day is. How awful the moment is. Their perception can lead them down a street of negativity. I simply smile and advise them "it will surely work out in your favor". They look at me with silence. No response. 

Do you think they are trying to figure out how to turn that positive statement into a negative one? 

Are they surprised that I did not agree with them?

I have always wondered what goes through the mind of a person who hears a positive statement. Just the other day, I was talking to a co-worker about dieting. Did you know I am a self proclaimed expert on gaining and losing weight? 

She would always state to me about how she ate too much, or gave in to her sweet tooth, and devoured every cookie in the cupboard. My response was always positive. I would advise her that it happens, and that she has to keep on moving. Weight is something that we must first accept. Our own state of existence and the ability to want to change. After many morning talks about the daily eating of yesterday, she one day advised me that I was always so positive about losing weight. She appreciated the fact that someone was advising her that it was okay to fall off the wagon for a moment, and that she was able to return to her healthy way of eating and move forward. 

That made me smile. 

Even though I was feeling blue, that little sentence of appreciation brought joy to my heart. 

The cards speak of peace and change of thought. The awake feeling that we get when everything just makes sense. When the heavens come together in union, to create that perfect moment. This perfect moment. 

When a person first learns to Hoop. You can do it on one side with ease and grace. One way of movement. But a true Dance Hoop person must learn to hoop in the other direction. They call this the second currant. Believe me it is not easy, but when you learn to hoop in both directions, it opens up even more things that you can do. Hoop Dance! I enjoy it. There is also a move you have to do, that is called a Break, and it stops the hoop from moving left, to turn it to the right. I know, it sounds confusing, but bear with me. I swear it will relate to the Tower card. 

When you first start to learn the break, it is not elegant, and it looks like you are making a mistake. With time you learn to make the break (disruption) look elegant with a little sparkle of hands and body motion. The Tower card is about destruction and the trick is to make it look easy, by making it look elegant. 

This method can be related to Pee-Wee Herman's Big Adventure, in the scene where he is riding his bike and hits a curb. He flips over and falls and when he gets back up, there is a group of kids watching him. He looks at them and states, "I meant to do that". This is how we should handle disruption. After it has ended, and people have noticed it, we should look at them and state, "I meant to do that". 

Disruption is simply the absence of Truth. We become confused because we are not recognizing the solution in front of us. 

It is time to wake up. Time to get out of bed and start your day. Time to take your first step into the light. Time to turn towards the Sun, and like the turtle, bask in the sunlight. Raise your face to the sky and soak in the joy of life. 

Blessed Be.