Sunday 4.28.13:
The Vicious Cycle of gaining weight and losing weight is always in the back of my mind. I am looking to relate the card known as The Universe, to the energy of today. I could only think of one thing. My ability to try so many crash diets, lose a couple of pounds, and then proceed to reward myself with a full weekend of eating unhealthy...Can this really be associated with the the tarot card "The Universe"?
Of course. This card sits in the position of Bee/Forgiveness/Compassion. The hidden energy card is The Hanged Man.
I am going to state that I am only five pounds over my average weight. Actually, my story begins three years ago. I was very overweight and was always depressed, thinking that I would never fall in love with anyone, or rather, no one would fall in love with me. Then I was advised by my spirit guide to go on a journey. A journey to find Aaron. I decided to lose the weight, get healthy, and find the person who mattered the most...my self. I went on a strict diet at first, then found that the diet started to become a way of life for me. It was all that I knew and understood. I would go out and enjoy myself with out the over indulgence of eating food, drinking alcoholic beverages, and tasteful sweets. I could say "No" to things that were placed before me and become an example for those who also were looking to simply eat healthy and exist. Beauty was no longer about how skinny I was, but it turned into how beautiful I really am. The pounds started to come off, because my attitude also changed, into one of being comfortable with the person I once was. Before all the failed relationships, ups and downs of life, and the detours on the path of life. The person who I once knew to be independent, strong, and beautiful.
I feel wonderful and great, now, and find that when I splurge a little on sweet temptations, I can lose the weight again. I am not going to return to the 230 pounds of unhappiness. The cycle ends and begins again. This is the Universe at work. We find the end of the rainbow...now what? Well, I know that I will surely go searching for another one. The greatest joy is always found on the path to the rainbow. The people you meet, the places we rest at, and the family that you reconnect with, again.
Maybe the forgiveness should be with the way we let our Ego treat us? Maybe we should have a little bit of splurge, in order to understand what insanely full feels like? Maybe we need to forgive our state of "always being in control", so that we can be able to return to that which we know. That we are beautiful. That the cycle must have an ending, in order to move into the new. Diets will always be there. There will always be something new to try, so that the last five pounds will surely disappear. Maybe it is the fun of trying something new that appeals to me? Maybe it is my spirit, longing to teach me, that I am still beautiful. Even if I gain five extra pounds.
I have not lost the spirit within me that states "I am beautiful!".
Blessed Be.
Saturday 4.20.13:
The card is the Seven of Cups. The card speaks to me about Dreams and Choices. I am not referring to the items we dream of at night. I am talking about the ones we have during the day. The goals we set before us. The manifestation of that which we desire. Choices are a part of life. They are built into our DNA. We make choices every day and when our ability to choose is taken away, then we start to create a revolution. Viva la Vie!
To live.
I know that when I day dream in the darkest part of the afternoon, I find that it is not backed up by a positive thought. I simply wish and hope that it happens. Choices seem to lead me down a path of destruction, but it is always good.
The hidden energy card is The Hanged Man. Faith.
Faith is always in the background. We require it. We need it. Some, even crave it.
The card, of the day, sits in the position of Hummingbird/Energy.
What is the Universe trying to tell me now?
What can I relate this to? An example? An experience?
A dream or choice without clarity. The cups part of what is desired.
Have you ever went to the Carnival and played the Fishing Pole game? The one where you would have a fishing pole that had a clip at the end of it, and when you would cast it across a black wall and pull it forward, after a quick tug, you would receive your prize?
Was it what you wanted?
Sometimes you would get the paddle and ball, a new toy watch, a wonderful little doll, or a teddy bear. Frankly, I always wanted rings and bracelets, like the other little girls would get, but the person who was in charge of this game would always call out that I was a boy, and guess what I got? A damn car or army man. Blah! I wanted a ring! ;-)
So, I would spend my money on the game, until I got a decent prize. This is kind of like the way we make choices and follow dreams without the clarity of the Swords, without positive intent. If all our energy is placed on seven different things, then we get a novelty prize. A small token stating "I played this game and all I got was this lousy tee-shirt". You get the point.
Now there are other games, such as darts and the game where you shoot water in a scary clown's face. Now, I knew what the prize was every time, and if I won, which was most of the time, I would get to pick my pink bunny or favorite cartoon character, as a prize. I knew that with every win, I would get something that was desired. Something that I could see and visualize. This is a dream or a choice backed up with Faith. You see what is desired and you focus so hard on one item at a time. The others will fall into place, for they are all part of the same package, which is to be content and happy.
Which is to live a positive life full of love and light.
What are you trying to manifest within your life? How many dreams do you have on your vision board? Are you giving your attention to one item at a single time? Are you focusing for five minutes, on each of the 99 projects that are there? Or are you focusing all your love and attention on the goal that is within the heart of the board, and allowing all that energy to touch every ounce of that board?
The house might come before the family. The family may come before the love. The love may be the last great adventure to be marked off your Vision board. Source is the only one who knows. So, you can either focus on one item or the whole, but you should envision the energy flowing through you and into the world with the intent that all good will come to you. Your dreams will thank you. Trust me.
Blessed Be.
